john2008, microBlog

saturday, and things still haven’t changed. i’m still falling through this ever lasting thing called lonelyness. as i try and fight to stay on top of things, all i can think of is the words that are said, and i think trying to stay on top was the rite move to do, but after been threatened hundreds of times, i stupidly let my guard down now what have i got? barely nothing. i don’t think i’ll ever be unband. i’m hoping soon i will though but i’m hoping it’ll be either today or sunday. but i’m hoping it’s mainly today. just someone do something so i can just be unband and this all thrown behind

ok so it now looks like i’m on the edge. i’m in between some kind of freedom, or being put behind bars. the_saint said, 1 more wrong move and he’ll insure something is done. this i want to prevent. i’ve so many friends, and to lose them will be hell. even naruto has been clobbered by the_saint, but i don’t think anything’s happened to him. so now i sit and wonder, will i be unband? i’ve sent him a private message, but in a way to some how hope he see’s i’m scared. well arthur make out that i’m scared and want this to stop? if by the end of the day it all goes as planned i’ll be happy. if not then i’ll have to continue trying for one wrong move and i might never see klango or my friends again. this must end.

in a massive change of events, i thought it would only be me and everyone else on klango fight for my freedom, but now more of my friends have joined my other friends, making my day more easier to handle, so now you’ve got burak, jonathan1991, zatury, conner2, and a load of other people but on top of that now you’ve got clare who set up a group specially for me, then everyone else crammed themselves in to the group and as for clare and sandra, they stepped in to the klango forums, and started up the fight! so now i can relax, but most of all i’m not going to make people think i’m leaving it all up to them oh gosh no. i’m sticking with them through and through. i’ll always look forward to having updates, i’ll always look forward to being informed of drastic changes, and what’s more, if they win this fight, i’ll cheer! but weather they’d rather stayed band from klango that’s all up to them. ok they are my friends but i can’t force anyone to be unband. yes ok i did request for gemma and loveable_kerry to be unband, but none the less, the moderator’s band them once again including a close friend louise. now i don’t no who’s going to back her up and get her unband for i no that a certain someone won’t help her. disappointing. but none the less once i’m unband, the others can decide weather they want to get unband, or just not bother with klango what soever unless i’m in trouble. like i said, once i’m unband, it’s up to everyone else if they want to be unband or not.

ok so things aren’t looking up for me. so many people are fighting to bring me back to the forums but none the less. all his faling before me, no one is giving in and giving me another chance. why won’t no one look in to there heart? so far it’s been more like oh you go on carry on what you do. oh you’ve had enough chances, you’ve bla bla bla well look! this is 2012! surely if one makes mistakes they should be earned another chance, even if they did wrong last year? but now all i ask is, just unban me from the forum, i sware on my families life i’ll do anything. anything anyone asks i will do it! i will do anything to just be unband and then left alone for this abuse has carried on too much now. anyone who needs to be unblocked from skype i’ll do it. anyone who needs me to step up and say that it was me i’ll do it. i wish anyone would name there request and no matter how i feel i’ll carry it out. please just give me that freedom! i’ve been band for so long and unable to act when forum posts are being hurled at me. so many negative ones, no posative ones! i can’t find a posative one any where or is that my head telling me there isn’t one? if only… if only someone could look in to there heart and grant me this chance. if i blow it then you can all do what you want with me. but please, please please please all i have been asking is to just have another chance. even if i have to remove some of my posts on heer i’ll uh wait lol i can’t do that for i’m not an admin but if i need to tell to the hole forum things then i’ll do it. someone just please! let this just be all over soon! just unban me, and then let this go! i can’t take this any more! please! just look in to your heart and give me another chance! i’m sorry for everything! i sware down this won’t happen again, and if you think i ain’t kidding, i’ll send you a voice message. and quite frankly if you think i’m acting when i’ve been sending some voice messages i haven’t. i’m totally shaking for i just want to be unband, and this just end. for i’ve been fighting for the last few days now and i’m getting weeker to the point where if anyone has a go at me i can’t fight it. i don’t no how much longer. i can only do what i’m been told to do and well… someone please just be kind enough to look in your heart and unban me from the forum? even if i have to be on trial then fine. do that. please, if only someone would listen to me like i listen to you, that’ll be great.

ok so now heer i am, blacklisted by the best friend/klango moderator ever. yes it’s hard to take in, but yes the blacklist is done, and there’s no turning back. but if i were to be unband i would do anything in my power to insure things don’t happen again. but they’ve heard this all before, but i’m saying this from the warmth of my heart. can’t people feel the glow of my warm heart? can’t people just reach out one more time and give me this last and only chance? this is all i ask, i’m willing to do anything if i have this last and final chance. if i blow this chance they can do what they want with me. but all i ask, please just give me this 1, final chance and i mean this 1, final chance. just please unban me and if needs be i’ll tell the hole forum everything. i’ll even send a message to the entire english community forum if i have too. anything to get me unband. please if anyone can find it in there heart to get me unband, please do and i’ll insure nothing ever happens again. i’m telling you all this from my heart, so for though’s who might be reading this, can you feel the anctious feeling? can you feel how my heart is crying out for forgiveness? i no i’ve had too much, for too long, but this is 2012. a chance to well now try and fix what has already started. but this wasn’t due to any problem at all, bill dengler and danny standley started this. but please, just find it in your heart to unban me and i’ll apollogise to though’s who i have talked about. and unblacklist me please

ok. so on actually being as useful as i could, i specifficly was on skype and space zone. rather unfortunately. and on at least wanting to have a good time, bang. dragged in to the stupid conference room, and then we were talking about my good friends on klango, and my other friends who used to be on my home network. and i was forced to unblock bill dengler. why oh why, and anyway. the temptation of blocking once again isn’t far off. let’s see.. ok i will say this, and i’ll only say this once. anna from germany, kelly, clare and everyone else from the uk are on there own laptops. get me? they are on there, own, laptops. and bill dengler and danny standley i had a home network so you can take your multi and alts crap out the window for my home network was designed to bring friends together and at least play alongside. and as for multiple accounts crap you seriously don’t no nothing. why the fuck are you all yelling at me when you no jack shit. don’t tempt me to block the both of you for rite now as i’m writing this, blocking them both i am close to doing. for if they are going to lecture me over a home network that was so close to my heart then i’ll have no option to not tell them anything. any questions i will just keep quiet. danny and bill think they no everything. i can’t work out why my home network had the same ip address on both computers, i’m not an expert you no, i’m not an ip fenatic and quite frankly why did i even unblock them when i new this was going to happen. hah! back on my block list you go. and don’t try and make me unblock you this time for you’ve crossed the line.

wow! today while i was on klango i had a private message. not any private message, it was a message verry short, and i couldn’t make it out. on asking some questions all i got was listen to the avatar! and i was like listen to the avatar? so then i asked who’d uploaded it and i had a reply with just aga-1990. and on listening to it i felt the most sharp pane i could of ever felt. tears were pooring out and all you could heer was me just saying oh my! but crying at the same time. such a beautiful and heart warming song. i think some where that song makes a point. i thought wow an actual song with meaning? i was thrown back for quite a while and i thought ok if no one even so much as comment’s on the song they have problems. i’ve still to send a private message but trying to do so when your imotional is like well… half of the time you’d get things like uh… and uh… and so on and i’ll try sending the message when my emotions have subsided for rite now i can still heer that song in my head. i think if there’s one person who should be popular rite now is aga-1990. oh heck yes. so whoever does listen to that avatar, throw a message around.

ok so as from december the 24th 2011, i’ve been trying to get things back on track. everything seems fine, but the radiostation is missing broadcasting software, and without that i can only do home broadcasts. the last bit of software i did have was sam broadcaster. what an awesome tool that was. i used it almost every day, it’s layout was out of this world, totally accessible and boy did i love it. and i remember trying to streem on andre louis’s ice cast server, that went fine up to a point where my xp laptop was suffering. the controll key was hanging off, half the keys were missing, so when i moved over to windows vista, vurtual audio cable just wasn’t having it and neither was winamp. and now before my other laptop’s mother board went i’d done an awesome show called christmas hits, and on the 19th of december when i turned on my laptop to spread more cheer, nothing happened. how did i no the mother board had gone? took it to a few people who new about computers. then my heart sank. i went for almost close to a week without a laptop, and i only had a rather slow virused desktop for company lol. but now i ask myself, the way things are, will dance fm continue? will it get to having it’s 12th anaversary? i’m hoping it’ll carry on, but untill good free accessible dj software is found, only time can tell

ok so things are happening, things are going on. but there are times where help is needed and some people decide to not help. yes, not help. so after having a good good play on the nyanchangame as it’s called well it’s all good now yes but finding things is anoying. trying to get answers is anoying for people either just add something else, or be utterly anoying and not add anything at all. and the main thing that makes game play more fun is if you have help. on some games little help can go a long way for some, and on non-english games alot of help is required as some people might not have played a non-english game. although look at q9 there’s an english and sweedish version. and if you’ve played the english version of q9 the sweedish one is going to be pretty obvious. and looking at the nyanchangame ok yes the game is good. i think i must of got to level3 i think. now that i’ve actually used anoying e-speak to work out where i am. anyway when it comes to some japanese items how can you identify them? you can’t. but as you learn from other people how to get round things then it’s more fun for you. like for example. to enable sappi on the game. on the main menu or before stage select actually let’s look at the main menu first. go down twice, enter. down twice again enter. go all the way to the bottom, enter. sappi will be enabled. and if you’ve saved a game or well if you’ve exited the game don’t fret the game saves it’s self for you. it’s about time there was a game where you didn’t need to do all the saving work. can you imagine your like on level11 on a game and you have to go, and your last save was on level8? ouch lol. but yes. that’s all good but when it comes to nyanchangame, just what, how and what are the options in the shop? now i’ve finally found it for before i didn’t no what i was doing but now i no it was a shop so how do you go about sorting things like upgrading your health and how much coins is it? it’s ok saying something is 20 or 30 coins but how do you no as you don’t no what that item is, or where it is for that matter? i mean seriously! how can we work out a non-english game, it isn’t easy! probably after about a month 2 or 3 months we could complete it with hour computers on hour heads. but yes. i think by a fluke i think i got to level3 but i can’t remember what part for i no there was grass underfoot so i’d asume that was level3. anyway, if anyone, if any nice kind hearted person no’s that game shop inside out, either post a comment heer on where the health upgrade is in that shop or private message me.

ok, so when you have a question regarding something, when you ask someone a question and they are unsure, what do you do, ask another person. but there’s a major floor. you ask them, they think your spamming them. uh… when has asking someone a question ever been regarded as spam? quite frankly i am anoyed, and quite frankly i now think what’s the point of asking questions if that’s going to happen. it’s an outrage! if people really want spam, by god i’ll spam them till hell freezes over. see how they like that! and as for my pole regarding friends coming back i’m not happy about the result. so i have now no other option but to handle this situation myself. if no one will listen to me, then i might as well take it in to my own hands.